So here we are, 42 posts later, and I've been across the world and back again. I've seen the Pacific from my airplane window as the sun has both set and risen, watched children from both nations run and laugh as their parents chase after them with both glee and frustration, and observed the many differences between our two cultures and also our similarities. So now, I feel I must make some final statement concerning both myself and the experience overall.
I want to first focus on the idea of the "experience". Upon arriving home, I had someone almost instantly tell me that I "should realize what an amazing experience" I had. This, oddly enough, made me a bit mad, and for a couple of reasons. The first is the expectation that I should appreciate the experience and its "amazing-ness". I personally hate expectations like that. What if I didn't have a great experience? What if, instead, I had a really crappy one, or just a mediocre one? Truth be told, overall, the experience *does* feel rather mediocre; at least, for me. And I always have to look at things from my perspective. No, not because of some self-righteous thing. Really, even if I'm looking at somebody else's experience or situation, I'm still evaluating it in comparison to mine. That's how I learn about the world. It's not that my way is the right way or the only way, but it is MY way, and if I am to be me, I have to hold onto that. If you are offended by that, I apologize, but there's no changing that. I just hate that people have these expectations of me and studying in a foreign country.
Which brings me to my second point: really, why is being in a foreign country such an "amazing experience"? I do not say this belittling the idea of going abroad; really, I don't. I feel that studying abroad WAS a great experience. Rather, my point is, why can't EVERY experience be an amazing experience? Why does it have to be the ones that are the most elusive and difficult to obtain? I live my life like everyday is its own. I try not to live it in comparison to the rest because if I do that, then I never fully appreciate what there is to have currently. And there's a lot to be thankful for in the everyday life: friends, family, the city you live in, the people you work with, the job you do, the hobbies you enjoy, and the time you spend just thinking or not thinking. Every moment is precious, and even if you spend it playing video games or lying on the bed, it's *that* moment; you'll never get it back. Doesn't that just make it amazing?
Okay, done ranting about the idea of experience. Now onto what I believe is the most important aspect of "experience": the changes it produces, mainly in oneself.
Here's some things I've noticed about myself since I've been back:
-My hair is longer...and I really like it that way. So do the people who are my best friends. I think I'll keep it like this. :) Still have to dye it, work on my wardrobe now, and so on.
-I'm more forward than before. You have to be in China to survive, and I guess that's crossed over. Not a bad thing at all, just something a bit unusual for the meek David that left.
-If you meet me in the next few weeks, please forgive me if I'm a bit more vulgar than usual. I will try not to be, but after being in China for so long with only students my age who could understand me and didn't care what I said, I've gotten a bit freer with curses and the like. Again, I will try to reign it in, but it's gonna take a little, "Wait, they can understand me again!" to really sink it in.
-I feel more certain about what I want from life and where I am at in it. I suppose that's what I wanted out of the trip all along, but I don't think I really got that part until I got home.
-I'm much more willing to change things now. First thing I did when I got home was rearrange my room completely. I like it a lot better now. :) This applies also to food; if you ask me to eat our somewhere strange, I will most likely be not only willing but wanting to go. (Though I still refuse to eat fish...and I just found out that my dislike of fish might also be genetic! How about that?!)
-I don't think I need as much anymore. I'm looking around my room at all the things I have, and even though I do want more, it's more like I want to replace certain things rather than just keep accumulating more. I can survive on a lot less now, which is a good thing if I ever want to travel again.
I think that's about it. At least, that's all I've noticed. If anyone else has observations, I'd be glad to hear them...or not. :)
Onto observations about America!
-WE'RE FAT! Seriously folks, I'm not saying this to be mean or anything, but I've seen so many more big people here in the last few days than I ever saw in China, I can't not mention it. I don't know that this is entirely a bad thing (unless it is risking your health) because overall, I feel like we're healthier than the Chinese in a lot of aspects; we have more balanced meals, we have healthier teeth, and some other aspects I'm forgetting at the moment. Really, the difference here is EXERCISE. For us, it's not necessary with cars and other technological advances. But for the majority of China, they don't have cars, and even if they want to take the public transportation, they have to walk quite far to/from it to get to there final destination. Therefore, they exercise a lot more naturally and are thinner because of it. Well, that, and eating smaller/less fatty meals. Though oddly enough, I think I gained weight while abroad....
-Public Transportation: Dear America, FIX THIS. Ours sucks. China's beats ours by great margins, even between cities. Make it more affordable, more accessible, and more available at odd times. We wouldn't be so tied to our cars then, and maybe we'd be better for it. Thank you, David.
-Chinese people are so nice. I don't know whether this is just because I was a foreigner, but I felt like they were so much nicer to me in stores and so on than American clerks. I've said nice things about the clerks here in the last few days, and all I've gotten was disdain. C'mon, people, other people aren't so bad. (I say this knowing in a few weeks, I'll be complaining about the idiots at IMAX again...do as I say, not as I do)
-Where is everyone!? So many less people in the US than in China...I can actually BREATH again.
-I'm not afraid of dying in the street everyday in the US now that I've seen the INSANE Chinese traffic. Well, maybe these days I am, thanks to the large amounts of snow...but that's temporary!
I might add more to this list later, but for now, let's call it good.
Okay folks, I think that finally wraps up Du Kai's Journal. Thank you all for being here with me and letting me share with you everything I did. Again, I doubt that I'll post here again, but you can always catch me at The Daily Acts of Jack Ex Machina (there's a link right there! You can click it! Clicky!) and at my various Facebook and email addresses.
Maybe this'll come back if I go to China again...but you'll probably know that before I do, haha.
A final Zaijian and good wishes,
Du Kai
Sunday, December 21, 2008
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
Thoughts before I leave Zhongguo
I have a day now before I'm officially leaving the country. As it is, I'd like to share with you some things that I've learned, mainly about myself.
- I'm very independent. In a country like China, that's very unusual, so it stood out more. Very rarely will people go out and even eat dinner if they do not go out with family and friends. I, however, dislike waiting around for other people and being a slave to their schedules. It was often awkward for me to do so when I went out, but again, I , so if no one else was ready to go out and eat, I went by myself. Same thing I've mentioned with trips. I just like doing things on my own terms. I'm patient to a degree, but after a while...grr. Of course, my mother would say that I've been like that for years, but it really stood out here. Even on my last day, I didn't want to go with the group. I like having my space and my own expectations.
- I'll be more ready to travel in the US. After traveling to Xi'an and Beijing and Shanghai, I feel confident that I could do similar exploits in the states. Granted, it would cost a lot more money than in China, so I'd have to budget it out more, but my point is, I could still do it. A benefit of doing it in the US would be I COULD UNDERSTAND THE SIGNS! Seriously, you don't know the luxury that is until it isn't there anymore....
- I'm worried about when I come back. There's a part of me that really wants everything to be the way it was before I left. Of course, not going to happen, but still...can't help what I want. I'm just worried that my expectations will be too...something, I'm not sure. I guess it's all just a part of the anxiety of returning.
- Culture shock: probably will happen upon my return. Never really happened here, but I have a feeling that coming back, I'll be shocked...culturally speaking, of course. ;) All kidding aside, I do think that my transition back to the States will be more difficult than that to China, especially in terms of money. It's been so easy to spend here, I'm amazed I didn't spend more than I have.
Alright, I think that's it for now. One more post when I return to the States. And if my count is correct, that post will be number 42...oh jeez, now all the "Hitchhiker's" fans are going to swarm out....
Zaijian!
Du Kai
- I'm very independent. In a country like China, that's very unusual, so it stood out more. Very rarely will people go out and even eat dinner if they do not go out with family and friends. I, however, dislike waiting around for other people and being a slave to their schedules. It was often awkward for me to do so when I went out, but again, I , so if no one else was ready to go out and eat, I went by myself. Same thing I've mentioned with trips. I just like doing things on my own terms. I'm patient to a degree, but after a while...grr. Of course, my mother would say that I've been like that for years, but it really stood out here. Even on my last day, I didn't want to go with the group. I like having my space and my own expectations.
- I'll be more ready to travel in the US. After traveling to Xi'an and Beijing and Shanghai, I feel confident that I could do similar exploits in the states. Granted, it would cost a lot more money than in China, so I'd have to budget it out more, but my point is, I could still do it. A benefit of doing it in the US would be I COULD UNDERSTAND THE SIGNS! Seriously, you don't know the luxury that is until it isn't there anymore....
- I'm worried about when I come back. There's a part of me that really wants everything to be the way it was before I left. Of course, not going to happen, but still...can't help what I want. I'm just worried that my expectations will be too...something, I'm not sure. I guess it's all just a part of the anxiety of returning.
- Culture shock: probably will happen upon my return. Never really happened here, but I have a feeling that coming back, I'll be shocked...culturally speaking, of course. ;) All kidding aside, I do think that my transition back to the States will be more difficult than that to China, especially in terms of money. It's been so easy to spend here, I'm amazed I didn't spend more than I have.
Alright, I think that's it for now. One more post when I return to the States. And if my count is correct, that post will be number 42...oh jeez, now all the "Hitchhiker's" fans are going to swarm out....
Zaijian!
Du Kai
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Did I say that I couldn't upload pictures until my return to the states?
I guess I lied then. WHOOPS, sorry, I'm sure you're all so disappointed in me. Don't worry, I'll cluck my tongue at myself just for the heck of it.
Here, as peace offering:
As well as links to the albums themselves! All of them!
I apologize again for lying. I only hope that in time, you will forgive my lack of faith in my computer.
Here, as peace offering:
As well as links to the albums themselves! All of them!
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| China |
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| China Part 2ish |
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| Xi'an |
I apologize again for lying. I only hope that in time, you will forgive my lack of faith in my computer.
Sunday, December 14, 2008
Post Xi'an, Pre-America
A few hours ago, I returned from my trip to Xi'an.
HOLY. MOLY.
What a city! I was only there for two days, but I did a lot. Within the first day, I made it to the Terracotta Warriors and not much else, but really, I got to see a lot of the inner city which was a treat. From the main streets, it looks like a lot of cities, from the bright lights and usual stores to the mass of people trying to get around on bikes, cars, and foot. A few things separate it from other areas, though. One is there seemed to be a law that forced all of the buildings within the city wall to be built with traditional Chinese roofs. I love Chinese architecture, so I loved that. Another is...there was a freaking city wall! How awesome is that!? (Pictures are to follow back in the states...I'm having some computer-to-camera problems at the moment) It surrounded the "downtown" area of Xi'an and was the first thing I saw upon exiting the train. Although not as awesome as the Great Wall (few things are...and yes, I use the true term of "awesome" meaning "awe-inspiring"), it still was a sight to see. Finally, once we escaped the main streets a little bit, there were a ton of little stores, streets, and other things. Xi'an also has an area known to English speakers as the "Muslim quarters", which is as the name implies. I don't know why there is such a concentration of Muslims in Xi'an (I haven't seen or heard of that happening elsewhere), but it was well worth looking at, especially the Great Mosque. I will have pictures of that later as well since I think words do not do it justice.
When we got out of the city limits a little bit, it was for one main reason: to see the sights. Yeah, a little touristy, but it was worth it. The Terracotta Army was amazing, as were the Little and Big Goose Pagodas (seen on the second and last day). I'm starting to run low on energy, so I can't give good descriptions right now. I'm not even sure I could with enormous amount of energy. There's just very little I can say about how they all were completely amazing and Chinese and worth every thing I spent on them.
It was a very small group that went this time, and as per usual, I tend to like that better. Leland (another SU student) and I were the only ones, but it really made the experience more enjoyable. We both didn't care where we ate or if we ate at the same places more than once, something my other friends sometimes have a problem with. We also both liked to move faster, so we got to see more, something I also enjoy. I don't mind taking my time when there is time to take...but there usually isn't. So we worked well together. :)
I have a few days left in China. Most of them will be spent packing, getting ready to leave, and in Shanghai right before I get on a plane at the Pudong Airport to head over to San Fran and then back up to Seattle. There's a Christmas party at a local bar that I plan on going to, but other than that, I might just wander the city of Suzhou a bit more. We'll see.
Oh, and by the way, a specific message: Kenna, it would be AWESOME if you helped me with the map. :)
Okay, I think I'm going to pass out. I haven't slept well for a couple of days (combination train rides and bad dreams), so I be very tired. There'll probably be one or two more posts after this, both right before and after I return to the States, but this is about it, folks. I'm very excited to see most of you very soon, and I hope you are to see me as well. I think I will also begin updating my other blog (jackjarden.blogspot.com) upon my return, so if you have enjoyed reading my nonsensical ramblings, please feel free to read that as well.
And again, pictures sometime in the near future. I promise.
Zaijian!
Du Kai
HOLY. MOLY.
What a city! I was only there for two days, but I did a lot. Within the first day, I made it to the Terracotta Warriors and not much else, but really, I got to see a lot of the inner city which was a treat. From the main streets, it looks like a lot of cities, from the bright lights and usual stores to the mass of people trying to get around on bikes, cars, and foot. A few things separate it from other areas, though. One is there seemed to be a law that forced all of the buildings within the city wall to be built with traditional Chinese roofs. I love Chinese architecture, so I loved that. Another is...there was a freaking city wall! How awesome is that!? (Pictures are to follow back in the states...I'm having some computer-to-camera problems at the moment) It surrounded the "downtown" area of Xi'an and was the first thing I saw upon exiting the train. Although not as awesome as the Great Wall (few things are...and yes, I use the true term of "awesome" meaning "awe-inspiring"), it still was a sight to see. Finally, once we escaped the main streets a little bit, there were a ton of little stores, streets, and other things. Xi'an also has an area known to English speakers as the "Muslim quarters", which is as the name implies. I don't know why there is such a concentration of Muslims in Xi'an (I haven't seen or heard of that happening elsewhere), but it was well worth looking at, especially the Great Mosque. I will have pictures of that later as well since I think words do not do it justice.
When we got out of the city limits a little bit, it was for one main reason: to see the sights. Yeah, a little touristy, but it was worth it. The Terracotta Army was amazing, as were the Little and Big Goose Pagodas (seen on the second and last day). I'm starting to run low on energy, so I can't give good descriptions right now. I'm not even sure I could with enormous amount of energy. There's just very little I can say about how they all were completely amazing and Chinese and worth every thing I spent on them.
It was a very small group that went this time, and as per usual, I tend to like that better. Leland (another SU student) and I were the only ones, but it really made the experience more enjoyable. We both didn't care where we ate or if we ate at the same places more than once, something my other friends sometimes have a problem with. We also both liked to move faster, so we got to see more, something I also enjoy. I don't mind taking my time when there is time to take...but there usually isn't. So we worked well together. :)
I have a few days left in China. Most of them will be spent packing, getting ready to leave, and in Shanghai right before I get on a plane at the Pudong Airport to head over to San Fran and then back up to Seattle. There's a Christmas party at a local bar that I plan on going to, but other than that, I might just wander the city of Suzhou a bit more. We'll see.
Oh, and by the way, a specific message: Kenna, it would be AWESOME if you helped me with the map. :)
Okay, I think I'm going to pass out. I haven't slept well for a couple of days (combination train rides and bad dreams), so I be very tired. There'll probably be one or two more posts after this, both right before and after I return to the States, but this is about it, folks. I'm very excited to see most of you very soon, and I hope you are to see me as well. I think I will also begin updating my other blog (jackjarden.blogspot.com) upon my return, so if you have enjoyed reading my nonsensical ramblings, please feel free to read that as well.
And again, pictures sometime in the near future. I promise.
Zaijian!
Du Kai
Thursday, December 11, 2008
And...done
Today is a landmark day. For today, not only have I taken my last Chinese language final EVER (I seriously think ever; there's no more classes available at SU, and if I study it at a school again, it'll be in a less GPA-dependent zone), but it is also a week from today that I get on the plane that will return me to the United States of 'Merica.
WOO.
In other news, I will be leaving for Xi'an shortly, so be prepared for pictures shortly there after. And Facebook followers (if I have any), there will be a literal picture DELUGE when I get back to the States. I have over 400 pictures on my computer right now from my experiences in China. AND THEY ARE ALL GOING UP.
That's it for now. Remember! Eat your green vegetables, don't do drugs, and for the love of all that is holy, STAY IN SCHOOL, KIDS.
Zaijian!
Du Kai
P.S. I think Du Kai will be my band stage name...I'm not giving up that name quite yet. :D
WOO.
In other news, I will be leaving for Xi'an shortly, so be prepared for pictures shortly there after. And Facebook followers (if I have any), there will be a literal picture DELUGE when I get back to the States. I have over 400 pictures on my computer right now from my experiences in China. AND THEY ARE ALL GOING UP.
That's it for now. Remember! Eat your green vegetables, don't do drugs, and for the love of all that is holy, STAY IN SCHOOL, KIDS.
Zaijian!
Du Kai
P.S. I think Du Kai will be my band stage name...I'm not giving up that name quite yet. :D
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
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